When the world feels so heavy | by zee | October 2025
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There are days when the weight of the world seems too much—when every conversation, every expectation, every noise builds up until it becomes unbearable. It’s not a single event that turns me on, but the slow buildup of it all: the unspoken pressures, the overwhelming emotions, the noise that never seems to stop. When it gets to that point, I do the only thing I know how to do, which is quit.
For some, it may seem like it’s disappearing. I became calmer. My phone is not being answered. I slip into the background where no one can find me. While it may seem like loneliness to others, to me it is survival.
In isolation, the noise stops. The constant pull of responsibilities, expectations, and conversations finally fades away. There’s no need to explain myself or pretend I’m okay when I’m not. In solitude, I can breathe again.
It’s not about escape. It’s about stopping. Stepping back allows me to untie the knots in my mind, let go of the heaviness I’ve been carrying, and sit with my thoughts without judgment.
Everywhere I turn, there’s someone who wants something: my time, my energy, my words. I am expected to show up, care, and perform. And while I care, while I want to show up, sometimes I don’t have it in me. My heart feels heavy, and my mind is exhausted. And the more I tried to keep going, the more I lost myself in the process.
So I’m backing off. I close the door to the outside world and give myself permission to exist. No expectations, no performance – just me, raw and unfiltered
In the stillness of isolation, I begin to hear myself again. I allowed myself to feel whatever I was stressing about – the anger, the sadness, the exhaustion. I cry if I need to. I sit in silence if that’s all I can manage. I let the world go on without me for a moment, and it somehow helps me reset myself.
Isolation doesn’t mean I don’t care. This doesn’t mean I’m broken. It’s simply my way of taking back control when everything else seems overwhelming. It’s a place where I find peace and strength, even when I feel like the world is too heavy for me to lift.
If you’ve ever watched someone pull away and wondered why — know this: Sometimes isolation isn’t a sign of weakness, but an act of survival. It’s not about pushing you away, it’s about finding a way back to ourselves.
And for those of you who, like me, isolate ourselves when you gain too much weight – know that it’s okay. It’s okay to back off. It’s okay to say, “I need this time for me.” The world will still exist when you return. And when you do, you’ll be stronger, more resilient, and ready to take on it again.
Take the time you need. Find peace in the quiet. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for saving yourself
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